Sunday, February 10, 2008

0211..After a long Year!

Blogging on Sandzscribbled after a long self imposed hibernation!In fact an exact year that has gone past.The year of huge ups and downs..now that's is never new but for the fact that my life has seemingly changed so much post my last blog! One moment of ecstacy in the fading minutes of 0211 last yr and a whole new chapter got created almost like a phoenix out of nowhere!

Today on another 0211...the signs are looking favourable yet again!The first few hours of the day went off with a couple of nice surprises & lucky breaks and now let's see if this day changes my life yet again. It potentially can change my career track if....
well that 'If' can wait for some other day to look back with the advantage of the hindsight and check if It really was one of those turning points!

0211 has been a turnaround day for me for 3 years now and for now I can just rest assured that the Tapestry of Destiny is slowly creating a plan for me...somewhere somehow it shall manifest a magic soon!
Till then let me keep smiling for a while :)

Saturday, February 10, 2007

0211??What's in there??

What's 0211??people keep coming back at me with this question as the four digits appear ever so often in my messenger nicknames.'Sandy0211' screams my GTalk ID ,and 'rendezvous0211' cries my YM...and obviously does raise a few eyebrows for sure! The numbers are a little too random and even more enigmatic if they don’t mean my DOB!! No it doesn't...I was never born on a warm February day but rather saw light in the heat of June summer! But where does February get in there!! Well the American style of mm/dd symbolizes today; the 11th of Feb as a random streak of 0211.But why 0211!??Well a little numerology was there in its genesis but a lot more of fate in making it symbolic!!

A number 2 person according to cheiro's book of numbers, and 11 was the DOB (Just the date half after throwing away the month and the year!).The concept was as simple as that for quite a long time...Until something happened on that very day!! Did I foresee it all happening when I had stumbled upon the 4 digits. Maybe I never did but life has its amazing ways of unfolding new stories.

And ever so often when life seems to lose its charms, it springs up surprises to show how alive we sometimes can be!
Blogs are never so good to unwind a wonderful tale as that!

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Serendipity?Or was it...?

It’s not often that you get goose pimples! There are certain moments out of utter wilderness when you hear a voice within and suddenly something clicks on! Its a little ‘butterfly moment’ when the world ceases to exists in front of your own eyes and you wander into the space that separates the conscious from the unconscious! It could be a song, a play or a movie; it could be a real life scene or just another incident that unfolds. I watched an old movie ‘Serendipity’ the other day, and don’t know why there were this little things that shook me or rather cajoled me into a different state; atleast for a moment or two!! In harmony with the universe was “Jonathan’ the protagonist of our story…and in harmony was I in that little moment of unconscious bliss! A smile that floated across the face, bringing to an abrupt end the gloominess that life can often be!

Monday, November 13, 2006

Experimenting with God...!!

A smile just spurted across…a silent realization that crept in! Music can make the heart go wild; the moods jumping in utter intonations as the songs float across the space.
It was half past three in the morning and all I was doing was ‘equity valuation’ as a part of the assignment that needed to be submitted the next day. The quantitative scales however got distracted soon as a little melody drifted along; pushing me into realms of nostalgia…into areas that I had ventured before ;but somehow today seemed a little different for sure!
The sparkle in my eye could never have been so deceptively empty! The journey looks long and tiring; at times utterly improbable. The heart still cries but suddenly there is a promise in the air! ‘Hope’ is all that it has received from an alien source. The Faith, the Bible, the Genesis and the Gospels…assurances about an encore! A victory well deserved, utterly craved for and yet looking like an utter illusion.

Will I finally make it….Will it ever happen? Will that day ever arrive…? No one knows! But a little hope has made its way again and scarily enough it has brought the scent back. Fond reminiscences of the ‘misty’ days bygone…will the ghost rise again and engulf my soul? Am I dreaming? The wild goose chase continues or is it an utter miracle in the waiting? God…I am sure you must be listening?

Life @ K...

Wandering wearily over voluptuous volumes I just wondering if this is going to be the longest night ever! Stretched, battered and badly bruised; it looked like I have all the ingredients of a perfect nightmare. A couple of case studies to complete, a few statistical sums that looked far too obtuse and a few millions of words to gulp in as pages slowly promised to give away to chapters!

A few souls outside my room however seemed to sound far more contented “hey! You coming with us to the night canteen…need to take a bite before getting down to business" shouted someone. Jumping down the myriad steps our gang was soon gulping a few sandwiches and chocolate shakes. The canteen is ever so bubbling with discussions ranging from Kotler’s pages to the latest stock market trends….from speculations about the next ‘surprise’ quiz to the hostel rivalry on the cricket field! The decibels kept increasing as I sat staring at the misty night that was slowly engulfing us. A blanket of clouds that hover around post midnight making the campus ever more scenic! A few hours later though the gloom had risen as the assignments look well completed. Amazingly fresh after an apparent encore; it’s time to have a small duel on the TT table. A few volleys later it’s time to go back to the rooms. Sleep, if you want as the night quickly moves on…It’s never the end of the day for most people though. The whole night is just the right canvas for the future managers!

The academic life does get vigorous at IIMK. Classes, case presentations & quizzes- utter necessities of the academic life. The faculty here however does make life easier...a great blend of discipline and fun as we sail through the classes. Hot debates on ‘organizational theory’ followed by plethora of ideas on ‘brand management’; sometimes its probability theories whereas at other times we get head long into economic curves! The afternoon slowly gives way to the evening and it’s finally time to go down the hill; literally! The joggers can get down to their evening routine across the picturesque descent down the IIMK Hill top while a few can go shaping up in the gym! Close by however another group just gets down to discussing their group project. Conflicting ideas keep churning out as one vibrates across the scale of decision making. Suddenly the computer savvy ones pull out their laptops to zoom into Google as others run across to the library to refer to a few journals! A long session in the library and the group finally stumbles upon the perfect plan. Submission times are hectic here at K but slowly one does get used to the whole routine. Optimizing our energies to get the right blend; that’s picture perfect of the Life at K!

Meanwhile on the other side, the hostel football team looks all drenched in torrential monsoon shower as they brave back after a session at the down hill ground. Bikes racing up the hill as the footballers rush in for a shower followed by a little ‘fruit juice & shakes’ time at the cafeteria! Another group going through Hindu and Business Line frantically to keep themselves abreast as the placement session hovers around while a few others lazily whiling away in bed waiting for a little power nap! Its activities galore at K! And for movie buffs, if you like nothing else, there’s always a movie you’d love to watch available on the network or a song that you just felt like hearing! Walking past my neighboring room all that I sometimes hear is the high pitch sound emanating remotely resembling a Pink Floyd number! Noise pollution if I might term that as it interferes violently with my ‘trenched in deep thought’ mood; trying to make sense of this latest problem! Another B-School contest that I am gunning for…A business plan which will shake the world; at least that is what we a group of four are already dreaming of!

The weekend arrives amidst a torrent of new activities! Special seminars at times with the elites of their own fields, while at most others it’s time to catch up with the lost sleep. Cultural programs to bring about a little ‘change’ or get into the ‘Salsa’ mood as someone opened a ‘Learn Salsa & Tango’ initiative. Also it’s the time to jump into the holiday mood. A dinner at Taj following a long evening at the Calicut beach! Others can take their bikes for an expedition to the nearby places; the gods own land being ever so picturesque for the nature lovers!
The sun sets on another day but the day has actually just begun. It’s merely evening time and a good eight hours more before I slowly make way for the coziness of the bed! Another day awaiting tomorrow; challenging but surely expanding my own horizons

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Looking Back@the 'Joy' left behind!

You can now roam across the places which were distinctively mine. The zones where I dreamt of an utter impossibility! The streets and the buildings…The malls and the halls…The 'islands' and the tanks… They are your entire playground today; your own little oyster. I no longer exist! Not in the place and maybe neither in the hearts...your story has just began in the place where mine lasted and took shape…and did slowly vanish! Vanished maybe into utter oblivion

Someplace have a life of their own! Not by themselves but by the people who visit them. It's we who give the lifeless mortar; a sprinkling of breath! It’s we who make a 'place' memorable!

People who have been to Salt-Lake can provide a different picture of our own Kolkata; far different from the stereotypes associated with the city. The zone of elites that it has slowly become, reflects a new Kolkata-modern and Vibrant; a cosmopolitan part of an ever evolving metro! A thousand days in Kolkata and looking back I can only relate; to the people and the places. Left behind are the lanes I used to trot, the places I used to visit and the moments galore spent under a star-lit little sky.

Not utter nostalgia as yet but surely a sense of DejaVu as I hear the tales...the people strolling on the streets of sectorV. Overhearing the 'new crowd' running to INOX for the weekend celebrations! Imagining my successors getting up and down the 215A! There lies the Auto stand, drivers screaming to get in the queuing passengers in. The 'Techie population' rushing in to reach their workplace at those flexi-timings...I can hear the 'Kolkata' hustle and bustle.I can smell the air as it slowly gets festive for the 'Pujo'...the 'abahan' of the goddess! Kolkata is still the very same…the same city that I left behind.

And I lied there awaiting! The 'Aaghaz' that never was. Alas they came...they all arrived. But I was not there to welcome them. I was gone! To hide, to escape…I literally ran away! The inevitable had shown up and had snatched from me the very essentials-The joy of digging deep and waiting for the morning. The magic was gone! Now I had to vanish before the next Sun could even be seen at the horizons. I had to make way. My wait was over!

Kolkata is still alive and kicking...more in my veins as I find myself jettisoned to a far corner...far away from the memorable days spent in the 'City of Joy'. More memorable for they could have been but alas it was mere reverie. Shaken out and disposed into another land. A new story which has just began!

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Angel!

Am I only dreaming....?reveries are not where i tread too often,but this looks like more than a mere day dream!She was right there,looking from under her glasses;a smile sprouting from the eyes behind!The wind gushing past her,bringing along a forgotten scent...of a place and an era far behind!and yet as the waves come tormenting in,the lost world seems a blissful delight.It rains without the clouds and the little droplets come tumbling down;unhindered and making their own sublime path through the desert sand.Murky skies dazzle; not with lightening but with reminiscences....of the light that it was. It was joy till it lasted;a world in itself...Chirping in my ears were those little twinkles,the sound of an human voice resonating across the distance... White wings flapping and a wand in her hand...It's an Angel...the small little pixy!

Monday, June 26, 2006

Anxious!!...what's next@K?

A big hall and a bigger buzz...not from the sound emanating but from the silence that prevails! It’s the moment that awaits me...anticipation of the first tinge of the IIM experience. As I sat in the 2nd row; being a part of the cognoscente that had assembled, there was this small trepidation that did find its way through. Into the core of my heart there was this tinkling, a little 'butterfly in the stomach' feeling. As I sat awaiting the economics faculty, my first class here at "K" and even more during the whole 1hr session, there was this little awareness of a question that evoked ever so often..."do I belong here?" 'Fish out of water' would be a little exaggeration though the eternal pessimism that creeps into does at times echo the very sentiments that logically should find no place! “Good in academics" has been a tag that I have lived with ever so often. Maybe thanks to a little magnanimity of my past friends and off course a few dare devilries maybe in my past academic life!! IIMs are however different. The conglomeration of the elites, the best brains as we self proclaim ourselves; an arena where you are put to your rightful place! Rather if I may term it, its here where you get to know yourselves....vis-à-vis the others, your logical standing in the zone of the 'best and the brightest’! No place to rest on your past laurels, as it’s a place where you slip up and you are obviously 'up'…aha rather 'up against'!!!

So as I sat wondering as the economics lecture kept meandering to a few zones of "being a little soporific”, I was just analyzing my life ahead. Break-neck competition...lots of new learning, some absolutely never trespassed areas. Marketing, finance, accounting, statistics...a few new jargons, not unknown but a trifle too unexplored! Really need to prove that I am finally here...rather that I am here to stay!

"Fish out of water” ??? Well it’s an anonymous feeling that crops in a little too often. Let’s rename it as "the start-up anxiety" till it takes any other meaningful form!
Let the ghost be laid till it wakes up yet again….alas it’s early days yet…